As a field trip for school they thought it would be a good idea (considering it's the fall!) to go apple picking. So a whole group of teenagers head up to this mountain apple orchard and rows of apple trees and they expect us to be good? HA! Yeah there's the private school system for you.

Well I was heading down to Virginia Beach for a soccer game, and Mom and I actually did get in the car and drive all those hours in the car, only to find out that as were turning into the park that they game has been cancelled. WHO DOES THAT? I mean a little responsibility can go a long way. And how rude! Beach FC knows how far we have to travel, you would think someone would have the decency to cancel the game before everyone is already there or on the way. But whatever Emmy and I can go to an early showing of Paranormal Activity, so excited!

Oh my sweet Lord in heaven, I can't stop shaking. Emmy and I just got out of Paranormal Activity and I falling apart. I thought the damn movie was going to be about ghost and that sort of stuff, but no. It was about a demon that's been following this girl around for years! Now I'm not really sure how I feel about ghosts, like I'm not sure if I believe their real or not, but demons are one thing I know exist. Emmy thought the movie was hysterical (don't ask me why), I mean there was this one part that had me laughing but I'm not sure if it was out of fear or if it was actual laughter. But I came out of the movie shaking. Chad and Jo went with us but somehow ended up in a different theater, those little minxes, but Jo was seriously freaked. So we went home, ordered pizza, and watched the Mighty Ducks 2 and 3. Chad had wanted to watch The Nightmare Before Christmas and we had actually put the movie in but as it started Jo and I were having issues with even that movie, so we turned it off. Shows how scared we were.

I knew I was never going to get to sleep so I invited Jo to spend the night. But she said her mom would freak if she did but why don't I go over there. So I'm heading to Jo's house for the night and hopefully we'll eat a ton of Twizzlers and be okay ... right?

So my doctor gave me these new pills for my bulimia issue. First, I was anorexic but now since everyone keeps harrassing me about eating I eat ... but then throw it up. So to compromise I'm bulimic. But since I got an ulcer the doctor guessed at what happened so to make me "feel" better she gave me these diet pills. I'm supposed to eat them 20-30 minutes before meals and I'm to exercise everyday (like I don't already). But the problem is one I take them, wait 20-30 minutes, eat, since I'm in the habit I just puke. So my question is will the pills still work if I throw up? I'm really hoping they do because they're one of those fat burning pills and oh boy! fat burning is what I need.

Oh yeah and Tye never called me ... He said he would ... Gee why doesn't this surprise me?

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Ty is such a liar and a hypocrite! I'm not so sorry I kissed Drew yesterday, actually, I'm damn proud. So a couple weeks or months ago he told me about these girls on Facebook who had asked to be his friend. He had no clue who they were, and when asked they said they didn't know him, just thought he was cute, so he didn't accept them as friends. Alright that's all fine and good he is cute so I don't mind a few random hoes telling him so, builds his ego.

This week he asked me to take care of his farm on Facebook (yes, he plays Farmville) while he's with my new boyfriend. He obviously won't have access to a computer, so he gave mehis password and email. So I get on a check his farm (I feel retarded doing this but what can you do?) and I see he has two new essages, so being a typical female with access to this vital information, I hit Inbox.

I opened Pandora's Box ... I swear I have never been so hurt by some of the things I read there. Examples:

Hoe #1:

(There's lots of unecessary info given before this, but this is the main point)

Hoe #1: April 9 at 9:39pm Report
i usually dont do that, lol.=].Girlfrann??

Tye: April 9 at 9:54pm
Haha. I'm just jesting.Yes, well kind of.

Hoe: April 9 at 9:57pm Report
Kinda? You naughty boy. Tell me about her. =].

There's more but it makes me sick posting them. That's where he's being the fucking hypocrite. He yelled at me this summer by saying he couldn't date me because I to often would flirt with other guys and it would make him feel insecure. MAKE HIM FEEL INSECURE! How do you think I feel seeing he KIND OF has a girlfriend!!!!!!! KIND OF!!!!! What the fucking hell!!!! And like he's not flirting? I mean my flirting never goes that far ... I mean it's your typical flirting like arm touching and smiling ... but never oh no I don't have a boyfriend ... well kind of.

Then he makes me out to be a hoe to 2 of his friends.

Example:

Jack: June 1 at 10:18pm
you go out with dana now?

Tye: June 1 at 10:21pm
Yeah, been dating for about.... 13 1/2 months... don't ask me how that happend. SHES REALLY HOT NOW :P.

Jack: June 1 at 10:26pm
hahaha so how did this happen?

Tye: June 1 at 10:31pm
Hell I dunno, she was like hey, wanna fuck? And I was like hahha alright! (not quite what happend but hey, close enough.)

Jack: June 2 at 11:06am
oh you had sex,my man growing up lol.wat happen?

Tye: June 2 at 2:52pm
haha no haven't. She's been begging me for like 8 months :D :D, but I might break up with her so yeah.

Example 2:

Elizabeth: June 19 at 1:04am
let's say guys are dumb and all they care about is sex! Not all, of course, but still!

Tye: June 19 at 1:06am
Well, guys can be pretty dumb, although it is completley not true that all guys... hmm... yeah it pretyt much is haha. (although I'm not like that, much to Danas dismay :D :D)

What the fuck?! Really? And now that we have and now that I've said that I don't want to (because it might get nasty and ruin my whole life plan if I get pregnant) he's the one who keeps bringing it up and wanting to do it. How the fuck am I the hoe? Why is it that guys can flirt with who ever they want and they're players (and t's not a bad thing) but if a girl did it she's a hoe? Where did these standards come from? Obviously a manwhore ...

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Havent had a bite of food today. Go me! Kicking Blair's skinny ass. The hoes had 4 brownies ... But I know she's just going to throw it up
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So I just read my blog from last night ...

I KISSED DREW! WHAT THE HELL?!? WHY?

I CHEATED ON TY! WHY?!?

Now I know why Drew wasn't in any class today. But Ty was very apologetic, saying he didn't mean not to come, and that he should've because he didn't think he did that good on the test with a whole night of studying. As soon as I saw Ty I forgot Drew. I have my man.

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Stumbling around and trying to write this entry, I feel as giddy as a kid on Christmas. This was probably the best night I've in a while. I probably drank a little to much but that stuff was yummy! It was this beer from Vermont called Woodchuck or something dumb tomorrow. On the way home I remembered I have a history test tomorrow. Oh well ...

I have a question. Why does drinking make you want to kiss someone? I mean maybe that's just me and the fact I miss my boyfriend and I have a crush on one of the guys at the party ... maybe it is me. It wasn't anything horny like I wanted to start stripping his clothes off (well not purely that) but I just wanted to kiss him! I feel kind of hoeish ... Jess and Jo said that was normal ... that they've felt that before. But I did. Sadly the guy is Drew, yes, the same one who's Ty's best friend and travelling companion this next week. But I was feeling more confident and sexy after a couple drinks ... so when he was alone ... I walked up and kissed him on the lips. It just happened! I mean it wasn't planned, my girls didn't say "Go get 'em!" I just did it. And he kissed me back ... I've known for awhile he's had a crush on me but I think I took advantage of it. Then I pulled away looking confused. He looked at me and simultaneously said "That shouldn't of happened."

DAMN RIGHT IT SHOULDN'T OF HAPPENED!

But then he looked at me again and kissed me. This time it was him who made the first move.

Looks like this might be a more interesting road trip then they planned ...

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So I'm sitting in my car, dripping wet from practice in the rain, freezing my ass off, trying to decide if I wanna go to a party tonight with Jo and Chad. Ty was supposed to go but he has a test tomorrow morning and his lazy ass hasn't read squat from the three chapters their supposed to of read. Gee, thanks hunny, want to spend time with you too. They have this party almost every week (unless the host: Codie) has a date with some shallow girl. But this is the first time I decided to go and it was purely just to spend time with Ty because he goes every week. It's like the one time I choose to go, he won't.

So I had just decided I wasn't going to go when Jo texts me.

grl u need 2 come 2 this party 2nite ... not kidding ... J. Butt is bring sum booze & last time we just snuck out & talked.

Then Jess Butt (same one) texts me.

ya u betta b comin bc im bringin sum gud shyt. u drink rite? jo sed tys not comin fuk hym n come hav a gud tyme wit me n jo!

Do I drink? Ha! And the forgetting Ty didn't sound like such a bad idea since he had decided to ditch both Kial and I for Drew this weekend and a random road trip to Arkansas. So I texted them back saying I was on the way.

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So I stole my brother's phone and looked at his text messages and that's some juicy stuff and then some not so. Chad's off work today and so he was going out to Jo's house to have lunch with her. I, jokingly, asked him if her Mom was going to be there and without blinking he said yes. I didn't believe him for a second. I know how teenagers work. But what was hysterical was the confirmation that came in the form of a text.

Chad was playing a video game and I was there doing homework and Jo texts him. He had his hands full and so he asked me to answer the question. So I did. But Jo didn't know that this wasn't Chad texting her or that there was anyone else in the room because this is what she sent back.

yay! ok so let me kno wen ure coming out. guess wat!

So I texted her back.

no! u hav 2 guess! ... im not on sunthing ;-P

I couldn't help it. I freaked out with the giggles. Well that alerted Chad that something wasn't quite right. So he put the game on pause and took the phone away from me :-[ But it was so worth it. I wonder what they'll be "doing" for lunch ...

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heads up!

For those who are uninform, I post a lot, but since I'm not able to make it to a computer when i need one ASAP, I will be posting a lot from my phone. So if you come here and find 17 postings from one day then, yes, I probably posted 17 times and no, they're not all the same. But I hope that every night, before I say my prayers, and tuck myself into bed at night, that I can get to the computer and just make it 1 BIG post for the day. Mk?

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Don't you hate when someone is making a yummy dessert and when it's baking they say "Here have the whisk!" Yes, it is a generous offer but I mean really? The whisk? That has to be the lamest device every create for tasting critics! You can't get squat off the damn thing, so then you get frustrated, give up, and hopefully, have enough sense to smack the bitch who game it to you. If it's honestly that much work for something yummy ... I think I'll starve, thank you very much.
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Current State of the Union.

- Freezing

- Starving but will not eat. Against my current diet.

- How hott did Ty look today in the shirt I bought him? Pretty damn hott

- Against going to soccer practice, where said person, will get even colder

- Wondering "How the hell am I going to get all that work done by tonight?"

- Smelling deliously brownies being made by sister, Mary

- Wondering if Chad and Jo are doing it and if they are, why?

- Party at K's tonight. When can I take a shower? More importantly where can I take a shower? Maybe E's ...

- Just realized a library book was due today, shit, and somehow have a $11 fine on my card ... wtf?

- Want a BIG cup of coffee ... might stop at Starbucks before practice ... not good for hydration purposes.

Write more later.

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hey people!

"Disclaimer: All the real names of places, people, and events have been altered or abbriviated to protect the innocent. Namely, me."

Welcome to my blog! My life and my circle of friends! My life is always in the drama pit and there's nothin I can do to stop. Well what can you expect when everyone has been a couple or slept together? And when everyones dating but not sleeping with that person ...

It's finally turned fall in Connecticut, which means we can expect snow to fall tomorrow. The breeze is crisp and screws up our hair. All the pea coat and parka jackets have been dusted from their long hybernation in the hall closets. School has finally gotten on a roll and for anyone who's a senior that means that the college applications have finally begun to stack up. But who has time for those when lurking around every corner is a party or scandal? Not me, I can tell you. I'll be out and about right in the middle of them. They don't call me Kyle Sade for nothing.

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